Let’s talk about progress and bouncing back from a period of indulgence.
At the beginning of August I felt the leanest I have ever felt – in my entire life! I had been slaying my workouts and consistently hitting my macros for weeks. I was finally seeing the changes in my physique that I had always wanted and was starting to think it was time for me to transition from a fat-loss focus to maintenance. This was a huge deal for me because it signified that I was happy with my body and felt like I was in a place where I could be satisfied to stay for a while.
But then, I went to go visit my love in Connecticut and because of Hurricane Harvey I ended up spending almost three weeks there! It was such a wonderful time spent with him, but my diet went to shit. Does anyone else do this? It was almost like I had a vacation mentality and felt like I could eat whatever I wanted – sometimes to the point of making myself sick.
I’m not proud of this, so why am I telling you this? I want you to know that everyone is human. Everyone messes up. Everyone gets off track.
When I finally made it back to Houston I felt terrible about myself. While I didn’t gain a ton of weight, I felt fluffy – like the toned abs I had started to see were gone and would take forever to get back. You know the feeling – you just feel like a complete and utter failure but have no one to blame but yourself. And for some strange reason I continued with the bad diet and entered the vacation hangover phase for a few days until I finally said enough was enough. I put away the mindless snacks and got back to My Fitness Pal and fueling my body rather than stuffing it.
I could tell you all the positive mantras I told myself about not losing my progress and all the inspiration I looked for on Instagram, but they just didn’t work on me. I still felt pretty down for a few days.
What did work was getting my butt back into a healthy eating routine. Don’t get me wrong, I love my un-tracked bites and meals once in a while, but I truly do feel better inside and out when I’m consistently hitting my macros. It makes me feel confident in myself and that is truly the secret weapon – confidence.
I’m here to tell you that it is two and a half weeks later and I feel SO much better. Still not completely back to where I was, but I would say I’m 90% there. I honestly thought it would take me at least six weeks to get my body back to where it was, but it has taken less than half of that.
What do I want you to take away from this? I want you to know that even those of us who promote a healthy lifestyle have moments (ok…or days…or weeks) of weakness and times we just feel absolutely terrible about ourselves. I would like to say that I learned from this and that it won’t happen again – but I know I will mess up again in the future – it’s just human nature. What I do hope happens is that I mess up less often and for shorter lengths of time.
If you find yourself in a situation where you’ve fallen off track, take a moment. Let yourself feel disappointed. Have those emotions. Remember the feeling – and conclude that you do not want to feel that way anymore. Then, wake up and start getting back to your healthy routine. It may take a few weeks, but you will earn it back!